i just met the bestfriend of lorlaine

what a small world! (and what a coincidence! to think i talked about lorlaine* only few weeks ago..) i accidentally bumped into lorlaine's bestfriend just last week! she then confided to me that she usually referred her suitors to lorlaine (don't ask me why). i almost dropped my jaw and..

oh! never mind. i'm just glad i dumped my dear husband. what can i say? he fully deserves his women (me, absolutely not included! hehe). by the way, inday - a household helper is also a woman. do i need to tell you that? hehe

*not her real name

introducing his lovechild..

if i'm not mistaken, that was in the latter part of july 2003. that night, he came home from a party smelling beer. then as we were ready for bed, he told me of a story that a friend of his confided to him. accordingly, his friend found out that he has a love child from a woman he met while he was still in high school..

he was confused whether to tell his wife about his lovechild.. but he promised that should the wife accept him and his child, he wouldn't let his role as a father interfere with his marriage and he would love his wife more for that. then, my husband asked me, "if you were the wife, how would you take it?"

while he was relaying these things, i was already praying that he was not talking about himself. but i guess i just have to face the grim reality.. so, i answered, "well, if he could keep his promise and he let bygones be bygones, then i guess i should accept him and his child..". then he looked me in the eye and said, "i am that man.."

although i was already half-expecting it, i was still not ready when he blurted out the news. i cried.. he kept on reassuring me that everything will be alright. a thought was screaming in my mind, will somebody please wake me up from this nightmare?!

but no, the nightmare is becoming a reality.. from then on..

when he met lorlaine*..

that was middle of october 2001.. my ex-husband was still my boyfriend then. we had a big fight (that time, argument was my way of testing his patience). then i decided that was the end of it. the next few days thereafter, i just ignored him and was nearly successful in killing my feelings against him.

until one morning, he got the chance to talk to me while crying (by the way, i found out too late that crying was his tactic in getting the sympathy of his prey - the unsuspecting women). unfortunately, i was so stupid enough to accept him back only to find out that during those days that we were apart, he had already used that tactic to lorlaine*.

i thought he was only using her to hurt me (but no, i was wrong. i realized later on that he was using her for the properties that she is going to inherit from her parents.) good for her that she did not marry him, or did she? oh how i wish that she married him..

then, he was blunt to tell me that he could never be happy with lorlaine* although he said he could have a promising political career with her considering that her mother, who is a successful politician in their place, could mentor him. he further said that he could pursue his law studies with the financial support of her parents (he must be lucky!).

then, he started comparing my family's properties with her family's properties. he said my family's properties will be eventually divided among 4 - my two brothers, my sister, & me. while her family's properties will be divided only between her and her only brother. practicality-wise, he should choose the latter right? no, i wouldn't reveal what made him chose me over her lest i might hurt her feelings (please don't get me wrong. i don't hate her). by the way, weeks after we got married, he asked me to tell my mother to subdivide our properties. my share would have become a conjugal property. how lovely!

i thought he was just telling me these things just to test me, and i was caught off-guard. too bad for me, i didn't listen to these red flags..

*not her real name